I used to feel the same way you do now. I've since realized that the value of a human being is infinite. It doesn't matter if you're a virgin or if you've kissed 100 girls. It doesn't matter if you make six figures or are barely scraping by. It doesn't matter if your IQ is 20 or 200. Everyone has infinite value, including you.

You matter, and in time I hope that you will see that. Having been where you are, I know how incredibly painful it is to not like yourself very much. I hope that you find a way to cope with this and feel better soon. You are beautiful the way you are, a wonderful child of the universe, with a special mission in life that you, and only you, can complete.