People feel guilty when they violate their own values. This guy does not feel guilty because what he is doing does not conflict with his own values. He will have zero interest in being friends with you, once the sex aspect is denied to him.

So you think he and you "understand each other so well." There is an awful lot you don't understand about him, but you will by the time he gets done with you. It may be a lesson you just need to learn the hard way. If you haven't already seen it, get the movie Waiting to Exhale.

Hopefully, you will soon get the opportunity to overhear him on the phone talking to his wife, or one of the kids. You'll hear in his voice a level of caring that he will never have for you. It will hurt bad to hear it, but it may shake you out of La La land. (I've dabbled in this kind of thing, years ago. It's not worth it.) The level of "caring" that he does have for you can be transferred to another woman very easily. And it will be.

I'm not judging you. Somewhere along the line you missed the boat on being truly cared for. (So did I.) This feels so good now because you've never had the real thing. I'm sorry for what you've missed. I was late in finding it too. This is not it.

Sure . . . you can have a baby by him. If you desperately want a baby, this might be a good chance. It will lead to him despising you. Here's how little this guy cares. He has already figured in his mind that, if you do get pregnant, he can easily push you into an abortion . . . because you won't want to displease and disappoint him. He is very sure of that, which is why he's not worried about birth control. He is winking at you thinking how like putty in his hands you are.

At age 25, you can do a lot better for yourself. Stop wasting your time. You are not getting any younger. Get what you really want and desperately need. This is not it.