But do you realize that you were a kid and it is a parental responsibility to take care of their child, ESPECIALLY when erratic behavior exists? I mean depression, anxiety, bipolar, and I'm sure others could most definitely exist in children. Any of these things could have been the cause for this behavior and it was their duty to get you help! To let a doctor know, ask for advice, read a parenting book, something, ANYTHING.....Y

This makes me sad for you because I know the feeling! I blamed myself for many of the things I experienced and thought it was because I was awful and unbearable and deserved all of it. Now, when I look back at it, I remember being extremely quiet, full of anxiety and worries, insecure, etc. and I went through a period of resenting my caretakers for NOT getting me help...I should have been in therapy for a good amount of time as a child. No one was upfront and honest about my situation to my doctors.

And to think I could be a completely different adult today and in therapy for maintenance rather than trying to fix 20 years worth of damage...it is infuriating at times, but it is what it is.

So no, it is still not your fault and nothing you say will make me think you deserved any of that treatment.