It doesn't seem right to be in this forum- but everything is spiralling so fast and I can't keep up and I may have to admit at some stage that this IS where I should be. Last weekend I was sitting at the computer and ended up writing (journaling) 3 pages of stuff. Some of it I never knew I had even written til my counsellor brought it up (I showed her it all, but I am not ready to re-read it yet). I have got quite a good idea of what I wrote, and if it turns out to be fact and not just my mind trying to fill in blanks then I can feel my whole world turning upside down. I am still convinced that nothing happened...but there are too many pointers now towards 'the worst'... so maybe I am not quite as convinced as I want to be... just totally confused and so, so scared