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Originally Posted by atomicc
I know how they say girls always get a haircut/ dye after a break up..and I absolutely do haha. As you guys may have read from the BPD check in thread, my long shot school rejected me. It was ivy league, but I had all the qualifications..just not enough I guess. It's got me freaked my other school won't think I'm good enough either.
Anyway, I have this strong desire to dye my hair blue. I probably will tomorrow. I feel like changing myself will help me feel less depressed. I always do it. Does anyone else here do it? Is it perhaps a manifestation of my lack of self? Am I trying to change because I hate the me I am right now. The me who got rejected.
I don't know. My head hurts a lot and I just feel completely scared of the future now.
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hee hee, i won't be doing any hair dyeing (i don't have any,shaved it all off) so hair color probably won't be an option for me, ha ha ha. but i do change myself a lot, sometimes after a break up but not necessarily. every year i try to change for the better, i like to think of it like a model year of a car "this is the 2014 version of me" i don't know if that makes any sense ( or if anything i say makes any sense for that matter!) so it could very well be a manifestation of lack of self, but then again what is self? what are we? what are we supposed to be? i mean ,who knows. that sucks about the school, but i'm sure you'll get accepted somewhere. try not to worry about it too much, i think you'll be just fine!
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