I do have some DL tenancies, but diapers were just a natural progression from the soiling myself in regular underwear. I remember knowing about adult diapers when I was ten and having fantasies of being older and in a nursing home. But in lieu of diapers, briefs were just as acceptable.

I'm not even really describing the feelings all that well. I know the hugest part of it is I feel a strong desire to have someone show concern for me and that blossoms into fantasies about being helped with cleaning. As for the act of messing in and of itself, I don't know. I've just always had a bizarre kind of focus on messing and the act of pooping in general.