Dash I can relate to feelings of worthlessness and that others can do better than I. Unfortunately that side effect makes it impossible to attempt to do what I'm interested in life. I am trying so it's a start. It's hard to not listen to the negative self talk especially when others in your life have treated you negatively. Today I'm chasing my dream and I'm really hard on myself the entire time. When I have successes I don't embrace them but when I have failures I take them on as being all of who I am. I wish you well on your journey and hope you can see you are worth something in this world.