Hi p1994, whatever people have ****ed you over really aren't worth you hurting yourself for. They weren't worth your time in the first place, so why should they be worth this??!!
There will be people out there who are going to care though, so maybe aim at investing your emotions in those who are really going to matter?
And even the staff member showed you in some way that they cared. Just allow the people into your life who deserve to be there.
Now do you think you could talk a little more to the staff member about how you're feeling??
Alison