I was an only child as well, so I also learned how to entertain myself and how to be alone. However, I'm constantly lonely. Even with other people around, I know I don't belong. Even when I tried to create imaginary friends, they hurt me (or rather, told me to hurt myself). I tried finding new groups of people and tried to figure out who I needed to be in order to be friends with them. Unfortunately, I don't know how to be anyone but myself, and if you want friends, you have to be anything but yourself. The whole "be yourself" thing is B.S. unless who you are is "normal" and acceptable.

For me anyway, I need to accept that I'll never be close to people and "friends" will always be superficial. Everyone else has been part of their group for years; how dare I try to become a part of that. I guess just accept and get used to being alone and you'll at least feel less lonely.