Wasting away
under the sheets of my bed
to many thoughts
of wanting to be dead
Here I sit
under a spell
of torture and terror
that needs to dispel
Shadows in the corners
Webs in my brain
Echoes in my ears
nothing to gain
Im striving to survive
clawing at lifes door
struggling to breathe
and live life once more
and when it seems im down
theres always shoes to kick
my weaken broken ribs
to poke me and pick
i need to cry
tears that are no more
im in too much pain
to open that door
Im drowning for love
Im drowning for life
Im killing myself
To get rid of the strife
I know somethings there
I feel it inside
Its growing in me
And i want to hide
Its an evil glow
Of something of past
But i dont remember
I hope it wont last
make it go away
im trying to forget
ill be a good girl
ill be anyones pet
You can do what you want
to me, anything at all
you can hurt me and hit me
Just dont let me fall
fall farther down
to the truth that dwells inside
I wont be able to take it
I wont be able to hide
I need the adrenline
so i can focus on that
I cant remember
I dont want to go back
So here I am
wasting away
under my sheets
Trying to pray
Pray to forget
Pray to survive
Pray to live
and yet praying to die