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Originally Posted by blackwhitered
Not so good night. I got stressed from a conversation with my aunts, and I was already tired from waking up at 6 (it's now 1:30 am) and stress+tiredness=voices. I think they (the voices, not my aunts) are trying to trick me into killing myself so that I take their secrets to the grave. I've definitely told the docs too much.
Fortunately right now I'm a lot stronger than them and I'm not going to let that happen, but it does get stressful...
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Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead
Think my depot is wearing off gradually getting worse. Jaw is still shaking tho so don't get it.
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Originally Posted by junkDNA
i think i got the job!!! i just have to go to spartanburg to pass the drug test and background check. she said when she gets the info back at the end of the week i can probably get started! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy!
i know ill pass the drug test because the program im in has tested me every week and the weed is finally out of my system. hurray!!!
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YEY!
I saw Mum today and she was a bit dopey and in a bit of pain when she moved, but otherwise ok. I'm so relieved! Even seeing my Dad when he got home and hearing that Mum was ok, or seeing her today myself wasn't enough to quieten the noise in my head so I know it's not stress. It's the same volume today too. Also when I was trying to get to sleep, there was a morse code beeping noise in my right ear a bit quieter than the other noise. I don't know who/what they were trying to communicate with though, because I don't know any morse code!
I only had 3 hours sleep (Dad too), so we've been running on adrenaline today, but I don't feel too bad. Should probably have had an early night, but it's almost midnight and I'm still awake. Just realised that I forgot to take my sleeping med cos I only restarted it Sat, and I skipped it last night to stay awake for news of Mum, so I'm not in the habit of remembering it yet :/
Anyway, my favourite brother arrived home from Uni today for Easter break. And it was his 21st birthday yesterday so we put up balloons and banners, and I wrote a birthday message on his chalkboard wall (which is this amazing special black paint that you can put chalk on and wash off) in his bedroom, which was fun. And we went out for a birthday meal minus Mum, though I ate too much cos I squeezed in a mint chocolate sundae for dessert, which was yummy but greedy of me.
Anyway I should probably go to sleep. Max is already passed out and snoring his head off! Thanks again everyone for being so supportive
*Willow*