I did text her today and she apologized, and said she understood why I felt that way. She said she was trying to focus on me not feeling so guilty for it, but that she can see how I might have felt forced, and that I did have a choice and she would honor whatever I ended up choosing.

During our session, we were able to talk about some of my fears, why I have them and where they are coming from, so that's good. I still don't know what I am going to do, and I do still feel very anxious, but at least I think we're closer to being on the same page right now.