It was established by my stay in the hospital that I have some form of Bipolar Disorder. But I had a question as to whether I experience a 'happy' state closer to mania or hypomania.

The first time I was in that state, I was full of energy, euphoric, had racing thoughts, was easily distracted and didn't think anything was wrong. It felt good. I wanted to go outside and be with other people but my mom wouldn't let me. I was frustrated but not to the point of screaming or breaking dishes. When this state first started I also talked faster than usual.

Then I had a few more through the cyclical mood swings that were similar. I had one major one at the hospital where it never really felt good, but I had so many ideas. I didn't want to slow down, so I went out in the hall and played with a ball to boost my energy. This was very stimulating but I suddenly felt tired. Which made me feel awful. I sunk onto the floor almost crying. I suddenly rose and said, "Take me outside!" I speeded through the hall and was impatient when I had to wait. When I got outside (which is surrounded by fence. I was shocked. Then I turned to my staff and said "Let me out. I can't slow down, I don't want to slow down. YOU'RE slowing me down!" I proceeded back in and commented on how the walls trapped me. Eventually this "happy" state descended into anger, very energetci anger where I hit the walls. I simmered down as I always did, down to flat. I never really remembered what happened, but the Lithium helps that.

But I need to know if it's more like mania or hypomania. As I've mentioned in other topics, my dad had Bipolar I Disorder and one of the specialists told me that I have the form of Bipolar Disorder that my father has.So, I really am at a loss of what to think and say. Is he right? Am I right? (I say what have is Bipolar II Disorder.)