I'm sorry you are having to struggle so much. It sounds like it's been real tough going for you.

I've taken hydrocodone sometimes just to try and ease the depression. I seem to feel better mentally when I take it, even though that's not what it's for. I've been tried on a bunch of different meds for depression and bipolar that didn't do anything for me. I'm convinced the doctors are stumbling around in the dark, not knowing what they are doing. I don't really believe in psych drugs anymore.

I think social anxiety and isolation can ruin a person's life. When that happens, I don't think all the drugs in the world can undo the damage. Drinking and misusing drugs gets to seem like an escape. I didn't get to far into either of those habits. It just leads to feeling sicker. I do understand how desperation can lead to trying anything.

When it gets so hard to do basic things like brushing your teeth, that is miserable. I know because that's how I get. There is just no explaining it to anyone who hasn't been through it.