This sounds like me too…I don't believe in unconditional love…you either use the other person and throw them away when you're done or you get used yourself. And I tend to disregard morals when they get in the way of what I want. I just thought I was cynical and without well defined morals, but I never thought of myself as a psychopath. Then again, the only reason I've never hurt anyone is because there's laws against it and not because of morality…so maybe I am.

The odd thing is I can sort of still feel emotions and can at least care about someone I have a "crush" on…but who knows if it's it's just lust and caring about them because I find them useful in some way. But then, I want to be able to love and be loved, so I don't know what that means. I guess it's important to ask yourself if you want to be able to love or if you're fine with the way things are. Who cares if it's "normal" or not? It's only a problem if you want to be able to love…or as close to it as you can.

But you're certainly not alone. I think there's quite a few of us out there…people just don't like admitting to it. But that's just a guess.