This I definitely don't know how to tell you.

You have become a small arrogant smug shallow and superficial excuse for a therapist, for a person in fact. I think you've been coasting in your arrogance for so long you no longer question your own motives and methods and as a result you don't even deign to listen to whether my criticisms and needs might actually be valid.

I have lost all respect for you, and I realized last session that you have no and never did have any respect for me. You set yourself up in a total win win situation, on the one hand making out you are the stronger wiser other, on the other hand constantly repeating that you don't know if you can help me. Playing subtle psychological games that I am now thinking are part of an elaborate countertransference on your part.

You've made therapy into a competition, a set up of win/lose and you of course, have to be the winner. You make therapy about you, not me and I come away bewildered by your comments and opinions wondering what they have to do with me or what I've been talking about.

I have no hope that this therapy is going to improve, and I have even less hope that it ever will be, or ever was for that matter, helpful to me in any way.

And I'm seeing you in a few hours and I have no idea what to say. I don't want to say anything, because I know whatever I say, you won't hear me you won't listen to it and you'll just invalidate and dismiss me.