Wow, that must be so painful for you, I can relate so well with a similar experience. I will tell you about it, but first I just have to say - and sorry if this offends you - that man is a jerk! And to be honest , all psychological analysis right now why he acted like he did, what his issues were etc, does it take away that he was a jerk to you? No! The analysis might help sometime, much later in the future, for right now I hope you don't take all that as an excuse. I am afraid it will hurt you more!

I was in love with this guy, an American. I met him, fell in love and he was so in love with me. Our relationship was great! We fought sometimes, but most of the times we were perfect. He would learn to say certain things in my language, which was so sexy ;-) A year into the relationship he proposed to me. I left everything behind to be with him, moved in with him, gave up my secure health plan in my home country and entered experimental treatment here. Anyway, my whole life was with him. One day I came home from treatment at the hospital and he was in bed with another woman!

He fed me the same lines as your guy.. He doesn't know why he is doing it, he loves me and meant everything he said etc..
I left him and my heart was broken. Because of him I am now trapped here. It took me a while until I could forgive him but it will take an ever longer while until I will give him the privilege of an analysis as to why he did what he did and his mother issues.
Sometimes jerks are just jerks.

And I am so sorry your boyfriend turned out to be one! I know how much it hurts and how the betrayal cuts into your heart. But please don't blame yourself. The decision for someone to cheat is always in the cheater. There is no such thing as: "Well, you pushed me to this."

If you'd like to chat or pm, I am here.

Hugs and Love,
Anelia

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