Im not sure what exactly to say
So....., a few months ago I was recommended to get further testing for depression but felt so embarrassed I never went. For the last 2years plus Iv felt quiet flat, bored and irritable. I put it down to my studies but since finishing every things remained the same, flat and repetitive.

Regularly I get bored and start doing things to keep my mind occupied but halfway through Ill loose motivation and either stop or do a half ***** effort. I cry almost everyday and sometimes more than once and get extremely irritable and feel so guilty and end up curling up in a corner for comfort or laying in the fetal position for upwards of 20minutes. I feel easily overwhelmed and stress myself out to the point where i have anxiety attacks and feel like I'm going to be sick.
In addition:
- I suffer from digestive issues
- I like my own space 90% of the time, my heart races and I feel nauseous if i can't get it like I'm trapped
- Depression runs on my mothers side of the family
- I have disruptive sleep and wake up from 3 to a dozen times in one night
- The way I feel has effected my relationship with my boyfriend, makes me feel distant from my family and caused me to quit my last job
- Iv contemplated taking my life, but never taken any attempts

Im sure Iv forgotten things , but it gives everyone some sort of a insight. So to you all i ask, Am i just over-reacting in even remotely thinking believe I might have depression or do I just have a "miserable" personality which everyone labels me with...

cheers, M.