I know, Rive. In a way, I was 'lucky' it happened now, and not when we would be living together or be married. Because I know that the problem isn't that he met the woman of his dreams and that's why he cheated. The problem was emotional and all his and sooner or later it would have come out, maybe even in more destructive ways. I am trying to survive, day by day.. It really helps posting here and getting perspective from ppl who never knew him.