I think it might help if you choose someone on the forum and tell them via Private Message so you can be reasured you are not the only person with secrets. We are not judgemental and maybe by telling one of us it will give you the courage to tell your friend. I'm sure that what ever your secret it is some of us hear have some just as bad or worse. We share them to get the guilt out. Secrets haunt you because they are secret. Get them out so you can quit hurting.