I agree with gayle, talk to some on here. Befriend a few and then pm those u feel some connection or understanding. We don't judge. U may find some of us have actually gone through what ur going through and can give u some support and advice. Just know u are not alone.

I have gone through the distrust with my friends. I thought I could trust my best of 20+ yrs with something. Little did I know she wasn't going to keep it to herself because I didn't tell her to. I figured it was implied. It's ok it hurt she threw that trust way but it didn't kill me.

Now I have T. And although there are things I won't tell her due to knowing her reaction, I can tell her a lot more than anyone else. She's not going to cry or attack me. If u don't have a T maybe u should look into it. It may help.