Petra5ed, I am so sorry that you went through something similar. Your words give me some hope, but it's too early to believe that I will ever trust or love again. Right now, I cannot see any light at all. I know that time is a healer, but it hurts so so much. And it's even worse that he did EVERYTHING possible to make me trust him. He had never shown the slightest flaw or doubt of weakness. Ever. Till the last hour! That's what makes it even harder. What is more, he was the one madly in love with me, and was not. But I learned to love him deeply and trust him with my life. In the end of the day, I was the one capable of true love and devotion, whereas he doesn't even know what these words mean; he just knows how to serve someone, I think it's the most accurate verb I can find.