I had delusions since as far back as I can remember. I never told anyone about my hallucination or voices because I thought it was normal to have people talk inside and outside of a person head. All my relationships went to hell since I was 14 or 15 because I was constantly paranoid I was being cheated on, lied to, etc.. Self fulfilling prophecies i guess. Nobody questioned growing up, why i was withdrawn, I was also a very depressed baby and slept 18 hours a day, which I can still do. In my early 20s I again tried relationships and they failed, I was not hearing voices very much but by the time i was 25 I was full blown psychotic. I thought people were trying to have me killed, that people were watching me etc etc... I ended up in the ER and in an ambulance to the ward. I was there for 3 weeks, bu the time I left I still thought people were after me but I acted like I was fine because being in there was like a rat in a cage, just going outside for a walk on the last day was such a relief.... I still hear voices and have hallucinations, I started hearing people talk the other day and I am on medications already. Maybe they are really there, maybe the experiences I had really had some truths to it, I guess I will never know. I could take a spiritual approach to it and say I hear dead people and see dead people, but that just makes me look crazy to people, i very seldom tell anyone when I am sick, I act like all is fine, I put a good front on which I have learned to master since a very young age. I take my pills and go to college, do my homework and from time to time get very delusional, but I have learned to question myself and my perspective, if i am seeing things correctly. One can never be to sure what reality is being a SA, but, I use my therapist as a good grounding for reality.. I think without mental health support I would end up homeless walking up and down the street talking to myself, There goes the schizo guy!