<font color="purple}Well, its been a while since Ive been here, so I thought Id let you know whats happened since Feb.

Its been one month and Im still off work. Work comp denied any responsibility for treatment and the state work comp ppl say lawyers have to appeal a denial, so Im seeing a lawyer on Monday.

I have been diagnosed with a torn Rotator cuff in left shoulder and a TFC cuff tear in left wrist, both need to be repaired surgically. So now Im facing two major surgeries plus being off work after them for recuperation.

Ive used up all my paid time off and have no $$$ coming in at this point. I dont know what Im gonna do. I am getting anxious and agitated that it has taken so long for work comp to get back to me about denial and also about the need for lawyers to get involved. How am I going to live until this thing is settled?

Any ideas?

In the meantime much has been going on with my insiders. Most of the parts are coconscious now with the exception of two who are MIA, so Im 98% integrated or together whichever you prefer to use. The parts have not disappeared, just think now instead of yell and shout and causing me to dissociate which is a great improvement on things.

I am now just in a very volatile angry state right now; seems that Im mad at THEM---administrator, work comp ppl, HR ppl, corporate ppl----those having to do with my current state of nonwork and no income. My therapist says that at least its partially directed toward the correct ppl; also says that I need to recognize that part of the anger is coming from rage at the abuse done to the body during its growing up years. Guess that makes sense, but right now Im just MAD!

With no purposeful work scheduled I am basically at a loss as to how to spend my time. Ive been doing a lot of reading about DID and ways of therapy to treat it. Recently got a book about women & their therapists and the lastest book on dissociation called THE HAUNTED SELF---gave it to my T to read and she said it was good.

Well, I feel like Ive bothered yall enough, so Ill go for now. [color">