first off, don't think that what you do in your 20's will impact your whole life. you can constantly recreate it. I didn't start living mine till my forties. sure I wished I made better choices in my twenties but I wasn't mentally stable to do so. if this long distance relationship is meant to be, then it will be so. you just have to be honest about what you want. talk about it. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome