Thanks! A lot of people in my life have been asking me, "What do you think a label will change?" I've been tossed a lot of arguments that it will cost me more money than it's worth. I'd like to see if I'm eligible for some kind of vocational assistance. I have a really hard tome even keeping a part time job. I'm actually trying to find someone to cover my shift tonight, because I'm too tired and in too much pain from training. Plus, I haven't had any anxiety meds today, and I'm not feeling okay. But maybe if I could find a quiet job without a ton of face time, I could do okay.

And I'd like to have at least one meaningful friendship. I'm hard pressed to find anyone I connect with on a deeper level than just the superficial. But, then I can't maintain it. People think I'm rude and self involved. But, it doesn't occur to me just to call and chat about nothing. Or, I'll get flakey and break plans, because I'm burnt out. I don't know how to explain it in terms that friends could relate to, so they take it personally.

But, I'm also kind of afraid. Will it really change anything? Will it change the way anyone thinks about me? I'm always really nervous about how I'm being perceived.