Feeling that my personality is somehow fragmented is one of the terrible effects of BPD I have endured for as long as I can remember.

Its not at all like having multiple personalities. Every personality that comes forward IS me, just different parts of me. At times in my life I will have a sudden realization that I have abruptly changed. Its almost impossible to describe.

A good example, after a long stretch of being completely totally dumpy, one day I walked into work like I had been on a makeover show. Perfect hair, makeup, outfit, bag.. The whole nine. I overhear a coworker say "She looks great!". I over hear a coworker who knew me for over a decade reply "Yeah, she does that sometimes."

It wasn't just that I wanted to spruce up and feel better. It was more like I slipped a new skin over my being. I was me, but I was foreign at the same time.

I have done this over and over in my lifetime. When things get really bad my work me/social me/family me and alone me don't match up whatsoever and all at the same time. Its a very unsettling experience.

When I was first diagnosed, my boyfriend asked me if I actually had multiple personalities. He had seen not only my daily shifts, but my long term identity changes.

I probably sound crazy. I dunno.