How can you love and adore someone SO VERY MUCH for so long, only to wake up one day and realize you no longer have feelings for them? I'm not talking about the usual rollercoaster ride of love/hate emotions that come and go on a daily basis. I've spent 4 years with this man, craving his touch, his love and his attention. We've lived together 2 of those 4 years and he has been my oxygen. I've begged him to acknowledge and seek help for his own mental health issues so that hopefully our relationship will last forever. Some of his problems include lying, stealing, manipulation, feeling entitled, being very reclusive, and so on. I think he has seen me pulling away from him and has decided that if he wants to keep me he needs to work on himself. At the same time, I've begun to evaluate our relationship and part of me feels that I have loved him so deeply for all the wrong reasons. I don't love him for the person that he is, I love him because he hasn't abandoned me. He has been a presence in my life when I had no one else. Having him there has brought me security. When I stand back and look at him without being blinded by the fear of being alone, I don't like the person that he is. I don't like our life together; we have nothing whatsoever in common beyond our mental health issues. And it's bad enough that my children have to suffer my ups and downs, they shouldn't be made to suffer his as well. So while he's waking up and deciding he wants this relationship to last forever, I'm waking up and deciding that maybe I don't. I don't know...