Thanks. Please forgive me for not having the energy for individual replies right now, but I do appreciate every one of your responses. The gratefulness.org site looks really neat. Thanks for that too.

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I do really appreciate your support. My brother is in a better place now, and probably doing better than he was. He had a very hard life, and I am sad and angry that he didn't get a chance to do more than he did. But I've been sad and angry about that for years, so his suicide basically just validates it. I'm not sure that there is really more to feel than I already did. It's just one more symptom of the family that I grew up in, which is dysfunctional and destructive, now fatally so. It wrecks lives. Not just his, but everyone's. It's amazing how much damage a dysfunctional family can do without even the assistance of drugs and alcohol. Just imagine what my family could do with that stuff.

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