I have not read this whole thread. I am responding to a question you posed in another thread and i know you want us to post here so....

My advice is to stop the recreational use of sub. You know you are an addict. The idea is to get clean and sober. And I know how hard it is. I needed a lot of help. Maybe you can't leave the house because of mental health issues to get to meetings. That happens to me a lot with depression. I know you know about NA and AA. I can't tell you what to do or know what is best for you. I don't pretend to know what is best for you I surely not god or any all knowing being....lol

But I can tell you that AA and NA saved my life and kept me clean and sober. I tried for years to quit on my own....no bueano. I can suggest that maybe it would help you.
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