This may get a bit graphic, but I'll try and keep it down to a dull roar.

As far as I know, I'm straight. Always have been. I was accused of being gay a lot when I was a kid, once even by a teacher who thought she was helping, but... I've always liked girls. I'm crazy about them.. like, obsessed with them. I messed around with a guy once when I was in college, but I didn't think that really counted, mainly because I still only wanted chicks afterwards. I guess I've been trying to rationalize it for years, and only when I just wrote that did I admit to myself. Yeah, okay. I'm a little gay.

But in a very very specific way. When it comes to men, I only fantasize about oral sex. Nothing else. Just that. I kissed a guy on a dare once at a party and nearly puked. The idea of men in general turns me off. But I think that under the really right circumstances, I would like to do that to a guy. Like, somebody I had extreme trust and friendship with.

So.. that's cool right?