Got a doc appointment today at 3. Crazy thing is, last week I was dying for this appt. It couldn't come soon enough because I felt SO bad that it seemed the life preserver that was going to save me from drowning, or something. Now I have goals, but its not that big a deal.

BP and the drastic changes to my behavior and emotions during episodes are so surreal sometimes for me. I have a list though, so I won't sit there like I have before when I feel okay and just be like, yeah I'm fine.