Alexandra!

I'm so sorry to hear how much you're struggling. (And yes, I read all of your post -- I write some long ones myself!) Intimacy is truly scary.

How did the day go? Did you get up and do the things you wanted to do? Are you feeling any better?

It's great that you can articulate what you're going through so well. I think you'll be able to share it and work through it...

Hope things are getting better,
Sidony