Hey Can'tExplain, I can definitely relate to your question. I have been diagnosed with situational depression--basically I become depressed and anxious because I am in a difficult situation. It's hard to know how to go forward, to remain motivated; hard to keep all the balls in the air without motivation. Regardless of whether this is "illness" I have been finding therapy helpful. Hope things work out for you.

For my post-therapy hangover days, I taught a pretty lame class in front of my supervisor and get my evaluation tomorrow.