Why do you NEED to go on anti-psychotics? My first pdoc gave me zyprexa which almost made me a permanent type I diabetic, then one of my most recent pdoc's put me on invegra about two years ago and it nearly paralyzed my legs forever - DAMN HIM! I dumped him after I found out - and now no one can get me to take anti-psychotics. ALSO - I love the music I hear in my mind when I'm manic-psychotic.