So everyone who has been following my last thread knows I've been in pretty severe distress the past several days. Tonight I feel really Sui, though Ive been worse in the past and survived. I'm thinking about going to the ER though, because I have to try something different. I need to stop having these Sui crises every few weeks. Maybe I'd learn in the hospital how to better manage this?

I just have some questions:

Do you think I'd be admitted? I've thought about Sui to the point where I have several potential plans I could use if I get impulsive/brave enough. At the same time, Im fairly certain I wont act on the impulses because Im scared. I've also been having dramatic mood shifts from depression to elation to extreme anger, and have been hallucinating.

2. If Im not admitted, could I still get a script from the ER doc for a PRN that I could take to help calm me down?

3. How long are most hospital stays?

4. How much does the hospital cost for someone with moderately good insurance?

5. Would it be worth having my t paged tonight to discuss this with her? I feel like she is upset with me, and might not like being paged. At the same time, she could probably best help determine if I should go to the ER.