#1

#2: see if she's willing to schedule several sessions at ones. I schedule three sessions ahead. Could her asking if you want to come back just a bad way of trying to let you know your in control? I would really suggest sitting down and looking over the paperwork for what's required for hospitalization and her policies for you. That way you know what is safe to say. If she doesn't see you at your worst then how is ishe suppose to help you figure out ways to prevent it?

#3 I'm going to separate this one:
Topirmite
You need 2-3 liters of liquid a day
Do me the favor and at least eat:

drinking 16 oz of v8 splash a day
3 go-gurts
3 table spoons of peanut butter

Things T should know:

The images that you've had them and when (mood wise, what situations) you have had then before
that you seem to be obsessing about death, food, SI, and things like that

It may have nothing to do with the topimite but more of an anxiety issue.