Thank you for your replies, it's so nice to know someone understands. I have my first appointment with my new psychiatrist today, I'm not really looking forward to it now. I don't want to tell him nothing has changed and be put back into hospital. I can't afford the time off work - my manager has decided we no longer get paid when we are off sick, a bit of a coincidence that it's when I've gotten ill. I work so hard on a wage so much lower than I should be as it is, then he does that. Claims the company needs to make "cutbacks" but I know it's a load of rubbish, he just didn't want to have to pay me for the time off. I guess he thought I'd have longer off than I did, I needed more time but I just couldn't afford to.