Definitely seek counseling, makes it easier to sort out your feelings. Also, pay attention to your body's responses to stimuli. I've never made a conscious choice as to who I am attracted to, my body reacts to different ppl without consulting me first. My experience is that orientation is like who we are attracted to; heterosexual men aren't attracted to ALL women, they have a type. I'm gay and am attracted to certain men, not ALL of them. And I've never had an opportunity to "pre-screen" them either. When I see my type, my body notifies me with sexual urges and I think "Aha! He's attractive." It seems my experience wasn't typical but before I hit puberty, I had no conception of sexuality. I had playground "girlfriends" because I was taught by my parents, religion, and society (TV and magazines) that boys and girls belonged together. When I hit puberty, I couldn't understand why I was attracted to men. It was confusing since it's not what I had come to understand was the "normal" way to feel, and frankly didn't care since I couldn't do anything about it. My biology had first and last say.