I've stayed in unhealthy relationships for way too long. In the end as much as you can't seem to move on, you'll feel better when he's gone, eventually! You have too much of your own to deal with, to be dealing with his laziness.

Get a pound puppy for sure! I've always wanted a dog, and can't wait to get one! Don't let some deadbeat hold you back.

Get a hair cut! It's important to take care of yourself in every way, physical appearance matters. If you feel like you look good, it can't be another reason you feel bad.

I am completely self destructive in so many ways. Eating is a tough one for sure. Just try to find other things to do, walking, cleaning, something you like to do, make a list, and try hard to attempt at least one thing before heading back to the kitchen.