Thanks for all the support, everyone. They decided to let me go, because I was feeling a little better. I'm really embarrassed; I called everyone important to me (parents, boss) and told them I was in crisis and might need to go inpatient, because I felt they needed to know. If they did admit me, my parents would have to know because they'd be paying for it, and my boss would have to know because I obviously wouldn't be able to work. If I ever have to do this again, I'm only going to tell anyone after they decide to admit me; no one needs to know this!

I still feel a little shaky, still have urges. I am still seeing my t on Friday, and I was instructed by the social worker at the ER to call my pdoc, so I'm going to do that.