Thank you all... for some reason, I thought this was a retraction in accepting my illness (I know, it makes no sense). I feel like to people who aren't mentally ill, that if we say "I'm not going to heal" they will tell us "yes you will! smile!". It's bollocks, honestly. It ruined so much for me.

I am physically disabled + chronically ill, so I see that when I have a bad day physically, people typically understand to their best ability. When I have a bad mental day, people tell me to smile and get over it, etc etc, we've all heard it before.