Thanks for the responses guys. I guess like Trippin and Miguel'smom suggested, I'll have to ask her on Tuesday if she thinks I should be trying to get help somewhere else or what and be honest about how I'm feeling. I'm feeling really isolated right now, so I know I'm extra sensitive to anything that feels like someone who wants to leave.

I think my brain knows I need to be honest with my t, but I'm worried about what will happen if I tell her I'm pretty sure I've traded the SI for an ED. She knows I'm having problems eating, but she has no idea the extent of it. I've told her it's because I'm anxious, which is partly true. I guess if I just make really sure I tell her I'm not in any danger but think she should know what's going on, maybe it'll be ok.

I'd love to get into an outpatient program, but without health insurance, that's not really a possibility right now. There's a behavioral health place by my apartment that does free services provided by interns, but when I called a couple weeks ago at the suggestion of my t, they told me they were "on restriction" (not taking new patients) and I'd have to try again in a few months. I'm only working part time, so even a sliding scale option is more than I can afford for something like outpatient.