First off I know that we're not here to diagnose each other (and I have an appointment next week, so no worries!) but just for the sake of discussion...

I am due to start 20mg immediate release Adderall this next week when I meet with my psych, but I am "testing" it this week, as per my other clinician. I have had Adderall before, plenty of times, but never for my actual condition, or prescribed to me. Just, you know..well, high school.

But as for trying it now, I cannot begin to explain how overwhelming the clarity is. Almost makes me want to cry. This seems to be exactly what I was needing to keep my mind in check at this very stressful time in my life. And I swear it's not just the euphoric effect of the amphetamine

However, I must observe and question these side-effects, as I last year, after leaving the ARMY, did go to the hospital for blacking out (still no "reason" was determined) but it WAS then determined that I had a heart murmur. As far as I know, I do not still. But the Adderall does clearly get my heart rate up and going a bit. Nothing too crazy, or distracting, but that being said, it's noticeable to me. Accompanied also by some light teeth-grinding, when I'm not paying attention enough to monitor that. I know these are common side-effects of an amphetamine, but, based on past personal experiences or educated guesses here, does that mean that either my dosage is too high (I am a pretty small female, anyway, don't know how much that matters but, I would imagine...) or that perhaps Adderall is just not the ADHD med for me?

Keep in mind please that other than these things I am concerned about, I do love Adderall and am rather excited to begin using it regularly. Since, I've never tried any other med, like Vyvanse or Ritalin, I am worried that if I try those, they will not be as satisfying to me. Many times I have heard that the effects are very different with each one.

Anyway, in the end I'll of course leave it up to my PCP, but, any thoughts?

Thanks