You are right about that. However, I feel like I'm just fooling myself anytime I remember how old I am or notice how people don't take me seriously anymore. Even if I'm able to motivate myself enough to complete something, would anyone even take it seriously, given all the years of failure in my background? Would my work or contributions be discounted or rejected by society because of who I am and what I haven't done in 50+ years? That does worry me a lot.

There are people in my life who I know view me as being disabled or mentally ill, or as a bum. I know that I will never get any more emotional support from them, since they will always view me that way from now on, even if I accomplish something important in the future. They will just say to me: "too bad you waited so long to make the effort,"or some other negative comment, implying that I chose for my life to be this way, and that any success now is too late (for them to respect).

So, these thoughts weigh me down even further. It is very difficult to get motivated or succeed at anything when nobody believes in me anymore. I still believe in myself, but the lack of support is painful for me, and is like a dark, heavy cloud over me, that is making it a hundreds times more difficult for me to climb out of this depression, even a little bit.