I didn't always feel this way. I wasn't a good looking kid, but by the time I hit high school I started to blossom. Always a thin person, I never had to worry about my weight until the past few years.

Now, at 39, I'm officially FAT. Like 70 pounds overweight. My once lovely face is now hideous. It makes me afraid to go places where I'll see people who knew me when I was thin.

My boyfriend will tell me I'm not ugly, but he doesn't really go further than that. Occasionally he says I'm pretty, but it's rare. The fact that we haven't had sex in almost nine months makes me feel even worse about myself.

I don't know how to not feel ugly. Overweight women can be stunning, but I'm just not one of them. Why can't I feel like my great personality is enough to make me attractive?

I don't know what to do. :-(

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