Sorry I didn't answer this before…I forget about the older posts.

I am an over achiever, but I have to be. It's been the only way to have people value me for most of my life. And it's the only way to have a chance at a career in a male-dominated field if you're unfortunately "female". You have to be 10 times better than a guy at the same thing to even be considered equal. How am I ever supposed to get a job unless I so utterly dominate and destroy (metaphorically) every other candidate in the process? And my specialty and field is dying out because no one cares about the arts anymore (at least not enough to pay a living wage to the creators of said art) so there aren't many jobs anyway. I have to be a jack of all trades and a master of ALL.

Besides, they have higher expectations for me than other students and I have to keep on everyone's good side so I can get recommendations.