Dear T,

I hate that I'm afraid of your reactions to things. You've never given me any reason to be; on the contrary, you've gone out of your way to show me I shouldn't be. But I still am.

So I feel like I need to test you. I hope this phase is over soon. I know it's normal in therapy, but I feel guilty doing it, and also scared that I will succeed in pushing you away or overwhelming you with my needs.

Please don't let me.