Its ruining my life. I hate it. I cant feel anything. Do i even care? Its hard to tell. I hate everyone and everything. Its not fair. Why is life so uneventful and traumatic. Why cant i just be a person. Why cant i feel real. I don't even know what that means anymore. Feeling real? What is real? What is fake? Theres no way of knowing anyways..i just want to feel ok. I want to have emotions. I don't want to deal with this **** anymore.
Theres so much stigma surrounding mental illness that sometimes its hard to believe these are real problems and that maybe I'm just overanalyzing but nope. Its there. Its real. And I'm sinking.