I recommend trusting your gut over your heart any day!

Wish someone had told me that when I had the same internal battle, and foolish romantic me chose heart, which lead to every kind of pain in the end.

All your heart wants is someone to reciprocate your affections, doesn't matter who it is or what he's like, the heart wants what the heart wants.

When in actuality you gut always wants what's best for you and will only act up when it needs to lead you to safety.

I'm in a healthy 2 way relationship now,( no one sided, freeloading, I make all the effort bullshyt) and my heart, mind and spirit are in agreement for the very first time. No internal conflict.

I would normally say do a Pros & Cons list, but you've already stated that the majority of your relationship hasn't been good.

You've stated 2 different sources, that point to the same outcome...